i thought they were love letters

what do you mean,
you don't have tangible memories
of me?

every time i sent you
that emoji that only meant...
something, to you;
every time i took a picture
of you, when you weren't looking;
every time i showed you
words from a book
that made my heart full -
i thought i was writing love letters

my first subtweet about you;
my obvious disapproval
of your fifth cup of coffee;
my playful mockery
of your knowledge of hindustani music;
and my poems, like this one?

i thought-
they were love letters.